Mariska Hargitay

Sunday, September 7, 2008

Okay.
I just say how I am feeling now.
When you told me that I made you pissed off,
I felt I am some fucking loser who cant accomplished his mission.
This is not what I want.
It is just taking over me.
Now,you are reacting like nothing had happened.
As if you could dismissed the matter easily.
But I cannot.
Its very hard for me.
Like you out there in the distance moving on,while I am still stuck here receving no aid.
Somehow,my heart told me that I am taking control of you which I just dun want.
Cause it will either me,you or us.
I do not want history to happen again.
I cant help feeling anymore happier.
I just need to tell myself that you have someone in your life.
And that I cannot stop you from doing anything.
I can feel myself losing confidence and hopes.
The day I wish to see will be not be seen.
The promises you made,you broke the code.
How am I going to believe that this promises you made gonna be true?
Cause I know you will have regrets leaving him.
And I know you cant bear to leave him.
I am here putting my head down trying not to shed a single tears.
Controlling my emotions isnt easy.
Fighting back my tears is hard.
I want to apologise what I had done.
Stupid of me enough to tell her about us.
I just didnt know that would hurt you.
Dang,I dun want this feeling to surface.
This is crazy.
I dun want to let this take over me please.
Please.
I had enough.
Spare me from all this madness.
I duno what to do.
But I would like to wish you and him happiness.
Happy 3rd month to you couple.

Take care.
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