Mariska Hargitay

Tuesday, June 5, 2007

Look properly,I am seeing RED again.

What is this?
You told me that lisa was your best friend.
And later,you said that you had no one and looking for one.
Tell me,what are you trying to say?
You actually have a best friend.
You may never know a person's true colour.
He may say nice,pleasant stuffs about us,
but do you know how he feel inside?
He could be saying the opposite in his heart.
He may just trying to attract you?
I am just saying it.
Slowly,im losing out.
I will get boring,
My attitude change.
You will go to him maybe?
Cause he said good stuffs?
Hes better than me.
Maybe?
Anything can happen.
Your heart can just change anytime even now.
Not long,I will soon be forgotten.
I am nothing.
I dun belong here i guess?
Keeping myself in the dark.
Jealousy,FUCK YOU.
Its a bad thing.
Very bad.
Jealousy made me feel that you no longer love me,
You love him.
And what am I?
A piece of shit.
Motherfucker.
GET LOST JEALOUSY.
Out of my mind please.
I no longer can stand this.
What am I suppose to do?
I have enough shits of breaking up.
Its totally fucked up.
It wont be the same.
I am scared to face you.
Cause in the end,you will say that Im boring,
you will be fed up of or annoyed at,
as I wont be talking remember?
You may not be saying that in my face,
but in your heart,
Im an asshole,
Im boring,
and say goodbye.
You will definitely feel unhappy/annoyed when we meet as I will be silence.
Still want to meet?
Nvm,we'll see how.
I bet it gonna happen.
One last time,my LOVE for you will never ever change.
Never ever sweetheart.
Sometimes,I think you are better off with other guys.
They might be better than me.
Unlike me,who always argue with you.
I am fucking fucked up.
I dun know whats wrong with me.
Im keeping to myself all day.
What can I do?
Will tomorrow be a good day?
Am I going to change?
Im too tired.
Just too tired.
Do I need a rest or to suffer?
I need to think.
Thinking and thinking.
My mind is so heavy.
I need cure.
This is so painful.
Its hurting me so much.
How am I going to face her?
Shes not gonna be happy when she see me.
I cant do anything.
I will just stick to myself.
Silence.

posted at 3:07 AM by Ammar | Permalink |

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