Mariska Hargitay

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

That's why I am repeating this:Love Sucks.

To:Lynette

I guess this is has come to end.
Everything I hope for,
Everything I wish for,
Everything I long for,
Didnt come to what I wanted.
Instead,it all come down to an end.
It didnt go the way I wanted.
Never would I knew that it will all go this way.
Everything crashed,dead and gone.
I have so much things to tell you.
All those hopes and chances I gave,you turn it down.
Been patience for all these times.
We werent made for each other.
I have to open my eyes and accept it.
All the things I did when I mistreated you,
When I neglected you,
When I told myself to hate you,
I did it for a purpose.
And I regret my actions.
I should have tried better and learn my mistakes.
Seriously,I regretted it so much.
You want us to be friends,
But I dun want cos it will only hurt me again.
You were my true love.
I wanted you back cos I know you were the only one for me.
It was only you that I can feel myself right.
You were the only one that I would be happy with.
Even though we went through lots of shit.
And now,I am lost.
After what you told me,I finally see my real image of myself.
I thank you for what you said to me.
I thank you for telling me straight to my face.
It was like a slap on my face.
But I had to learn what I was really am.
I am inhuman.
Yes,I am really am.
And now,I am lost.
I have to pick myself up.
Thats why we fall.
I know its too late for me to say anything right now.
Nothing can be done.
You ownself said it,"its too late".
Its gonna be long tough ride.
But I am gonna try my best to reach the top.
Even though its late,I would like to say I am sorry for what I have done to you.
Like I said,there was a cause that I did it.
I feel very stupid.
Its over.
I am gonna have my own path to walk.
Our very young love,its all comes to an end.
Okay,I dun want to say anymore further.
It doesnt feel right to say it here.
Take care.
13/11/06

Dara,you are a nice girl.
But I am just not ready.
I dun want to be in love.
I hate myself.
Please,I need to clear my mind.
I am not the kind of guy you think I am.
Sorry.

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