Mariska Hargitay

Friday, June 20, 2008

I just don't know what is in your mind.
What are you exactly up to?
I think I have given myself too much hope.
You are out there doing I-don't-know what.
You are talking to guys.
I know its just talking to guys.
Maybe I am just jealous.
It's okay.
I guess it's natural.
But the way you talk to them sound like as though you so close to them when you are not even close.
Like you are being too friendly.
Okay,enough.
Like what I said,do whatever fuck you want.
You do your stuffs out there,I do mine.
You in your world,I in my world.
I just feel like not talking or meeting you.
I just dun feel the affection even thought you kiss me or what.
Your attitude is still the same.
I think I just don't want to control you or being possesive.
So,what I gonna do:
-leave you alone
-not thinking of what you are doing outside and all
-not even want to think of you cos I will get upset and all
-force myself not to feel lonely
-force myself to be alone
Huh.
Seem like a short list.
Well,I just don't want to do anything that is about you.
I am sorry if this hurts you.
But we need to give our time off.
I think we should break all those chain around us and be free.
So I am letting you fly.
Cause I don't want to bother you anymore.
And no more of being upset and all.
You be happy that you can do what you want.
You want me to care for you.
But if I care for you,I be getting hurt.
Cos I think of what you do makes me jealous.
And the way you dress,horrible.
So I dun want to get hurt by not caring you.
But If i dun care you,you get hurt.
Why will you get hurt if I dun care you?
I think you should be old enough to take care of yourself.
But for certain things,I have to care for you la.
Other than that,your problem.
So,either way you and me will get hurt eventually.
So we need to stop this.
Hai.
I dun know what I am gonna do.
Well,so the main whole point is...
It's time I have to walk alone.

posted at 12:57 AM by Ammar | Permalink |

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