Mariska Hargitay

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Happy 'dead' 38th Anniversary L.

The title says it all.
So sayang,Happy 38th Month (:
Even though we are in this state,I guess its better than nothing.
I know fully well what I am going through.
Being hurt again and again.
This is for what I have done to you in the past.
I am accepting this even though its harsh and all.
Seeing you are with Randy,it reminds me of the days when I was once yours.
When I was your number 1.
Yet,I didnt learn to treasure.
Well,I believe Randy could be the one to mend your broken wall.
I hope you are happy with him.
Even though this is not what I want.
I cant be selfish enough to steal you away from him or what.
Love cant be forced.
Its time I need you to be free and happy after being hurt for a long time.
I need to think for your happiness.
Its time,where you wont need to be hurt.
You told me,you dun want to be hurt anymore.
I understood.
You just cant bear to go through another one.
You had enough.
So let me just go through this and learn.
And learn to be a better person.
38th.
Thats pretty fast.
We have come this far.
We still have a long way to go.
But I wont be going with you in the near future this time.
Travel your path with your love and treasure him.
Dun turn back k,L.
Cos the hope I been holding on will never be real.
It seems so impossible.
Its time,i find my own path and seek a new life with myself.
And I never hope to meet you halfway.
This hurt,yes.
I love you so very much.
What I regret the most,was that I didnt tell you how much you mean the world to me.
By the time I realized it,it was too late.
I only got myself to blame.
Nvm,its okay.
You happy,Im happy too.
You taught me alot of things.
You taught me to be a better person.
You taught me to save my money.
You taught me to balance my studies.
Most importantly,you taught me how to love.
Im grateful to have you L.
When I had no money,you were there for me to support me.
When I had no food,your hands were the one fed me.
When I had no one else to run to,you spread your arms wide for me.
You took all the harsh treatment I gave.
You are a superwoman.
Really,I only blame myself for not taking care of you well.
You are wonderful.
Lyn,you were my mother,father,friend and a lover.
Its okay that you forgot the date.
I dun expect you to remember it.
I love you.

Randy,you are a very lucky guy.
I fucking envy you.

posted at 12:30 AM by Ammar | Permalink |

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