Mariska Hargitay

Monday, April 19, 2010

For you,I would do anything.

I woke up.
And the first thing I saw was your message.
I couldnt tell how I felt.
But I just froze there.
I didnt want to reply.
But I think and think.
I replied you.
And next I went to 313 hoping to bump into you.
Even though my heart didnt want to see you,I had this feeling that I wanted to see you.
I know,I contradict alot.
And I mean alot.
Lastly,you talk to me on MSN.
How great.
I fear that I get hurt again.
And I want to say,I am really happy that we talk.
Its a sense of relief.
But somehow,I am upset that I am gonna get hurt again.
I am phobia to this.
Im stupid I know.
I know the consequences,but Im taking the risk.
Every night I dream of you seriously.
Sooo,cheer up my darling.
Dun be so sad k.
Things would go smooth on you.
Now,you guys having been going on for 6months I guess.
Well,good for you.
Even though I am hoping to be yours again one day.(Please!!!!!!!!!)
Sigh,I want to hold your hand.
Tonight,I know I am going to sleep with a smile knowing that I talk to you L.

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Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Happy Dead 41th Month Anniversary.

I bet you have forgotten the date 13th.
How could I forget or even avoid it.
The number 13 mean so much for me.
It symbolize our love.
The day we started our journey together as one heart.
13 wasnt about me alone.
Its about you.
Each time Im on the com,I would read your blog.
And its the same post.
Nothing changes.
"I doubt I would want to do anything with you"
I would remember that.
Till now,I am stuck here.
I just dun want to move on.
I need you.
I have been lying to my friends and even myself.
Stop telling me to move on.
I will get better,I know.
But Lynette will forever stay in my heart.
Words came to me that you have been very happy and all.
Thats good for you.
Everything reminds me of you.
Even small details.
Gone with the days we were together.
Im so upset that I am just pure evil.
I did you wrong.
Now Im taking this punishment.
Im so sorry Lynette.
I am still hoping to that day when we would be reunited again.
I wanna see you.
I want to hug you like I always do when I meet you.
I want to kiss you on your cheek and tell you how much I miss you.
I want to hold your hand and tell you how much I love you and that,
It is our 41th month.
Happy dead 41th month lynette.
I love you dearly.

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Sunday, April 4, 2010

My little "Lynette".

In this picture,can you spot a similarity?
Somehow,somewhat,they look alike.
And it only make it worse.
Each time I see her(Rishon) in school,my first thought would be Lynette.
Rishon is also my dance crew.
I never to look at her.
I didnt see her as Rishon I swear,but Lynette.
Rishon responded the same when I showed her the picture.
Even her friends agreed.
And she asked me this Q:
"Then if you see me,what do you see?"
I answered,
"You always remind me of Lynette."
How cruel can my life be.
I wish to forget you Lynette.
But these kind of things,these kind of things happen.
Everything I do,is always something about you.
I duno why,but it always happen.
No matter how far you are,I always feel that you are near me.
At times,I look around a little longer hoping you would randomly appear.
The dog tag,the ring...is the most precious stuff with me.
Even though its a small thing,it has alot of meaning.
Lynette,I hope you are fine now with him.
You know,1st April has pass.
I just hope you dun break the agreement even though I have a feeling you already did.
Well,I cant do anything about it.
Goodbye.

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