Mariska Hargitay

Sunday, June 29, 2008

Too late

Lynette.

Just what exactly you want?
I think we need to settle this so we can clear our understanding.
You told me you got no feelings for him,but why in the first place you agree to be with him.
You told me you got no feelings for him,but why I see you two are kissing like without realising you are hurting me.
You send me this msg last time "Ammar,I dun want this to affect you.Even though I know it will,try and do things that will you not think of it...But dun worry,I can assure you that we will do nothing more than what I told you.I promise you okay?Trust me.Since you gave forgave me,I wont take advantage of the chance you gave me
because I dun want to lose you either or do I want to lie again."
Tell me lynette.
What happen to that promise?
What happen to that trust?
What happen to that chance that you took advantage of?
And,its you ownself make me lose you.
So,its you again,making me leave you.
I know you gonna say "Its not as if you never break a promise"
Just dun use the past as an excuse.
Just what you want from me?
Do you want to hurt till I die?
Not fun enough hurting me?
What did I do to deserve this?
My 'retribution'?
That hurtful huh?
I still feel the pain in my heart seeing you and him.
I want to be there for you but just that you got someone.
And now,you telling me you got no feelings for him.
Just look at you two.
He so clingy to you.
You got no choice but to hurt somebody again.
I need to know what is exactly in your mind.
I want to know what are you up to.
I am just so sick of it.
Dun apologise since I deserve this as it is my 'retribution'
I swear you are the only girl who hurt me soo much.
You want me to be with you,but just take a good look at yourself.
Even Guo Min msg me that he dun want be your friend cos of your attitude.
He didn't even want to talk to you.
But I told him to give you another chance.
Can you dun listen to your bf?
She's just ruining you.
You can't see it.
You can't even say NO.
Wake up.
I realise I can't seem to trust you.
I dun see why you dun trust me when I am doing nothing to hurt you.
Just think of how I feel okay.
I wonder what is next.
But I won't give a shit anymore cos past is past.
I can't never predict the unpredictable.
I had feelings for you,but you went to him instead.
I need you to clarify things with me.
And that kiss me you gave before you left,i felt it was pain.
Thinking of you just make me hurt.
But I am just can controlling very hard.
Lynette,I am afraid that I have to you tell you this.
It's too late.

posted at 12:49 AM by Ammar | Permalink |

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