Mariska Hargitay

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Its you L.

L,just be patient.
You will soon know it.
Its just a matter of time before you know it will happen.
These past days,after the holidays,I felt I wasnt that important to you anymore.
As you get more open to the world showing off your love,I feels more neglected.
But I know,it has to be this way.
If not,whats the other way?
Everything happen for a cause.
Part of you are right,if wouldnt for you,I wouldnt feel so happy.
At least there were times when I felt loved and were in our own world.
While I know well that things were gonna get back to square 1 or rather,worse.
I fear cockroaches and lizards,but have you ever know my greatest fear?
My greatest fear is to lose you Lynette.
Thats,my only biggest fear and I have yet to face it.
But I know your love for him will only tear us apart.
I dun mind.
As long you are safe in his hands.
I am always uneasy whenever I am by myself.
And each time youre with me,you are like my antidote.
But it doesnt last long.
As soon you left,thats when I my heart sank and wishing we back to those times.
I would always watch you leave.
Cos Im in such a situation whereby I wouldnt know if I would be able to see you again.
Time is crucial.
Time is so precious.
Lynette,I think your thinking of me and my 'girls' is too much.
I dun understand why you think like I am sort of flirt.
But I understand if you hate me for the things I done to you.
But even now?
What did I even did?
Basically,you dun like every single girl I talk to.
I just dun understand.
I wish to come over this.
Even if its my fault,do tell me.
I want to learn from my mistake.
Sorry Lynette,I can promised you we can never be together again.
Even if I want to badly,we still cant.
You have yet to trust me.
While I am slowly,trying to gain yours.
At the same time,I am trying to be flexible with you and be a better person.
Lets say,maybe fate doesnt want us to be together.
But I am hoping,miracles will happen.
Nevertheless,I am still waiting.
But for sure,I want to prove to you I can be a better person and that one day,you will come to realised that I really love you.
You also changed okay,cos your attitude can be rude at times.
You dun seem to appreciate my advice and all.
I wanted to show you that I care for you,but I guess,you were playing along or what.
I duno.
But I want you to know,I really care for you alot.
I know I dun sound convincing to you,but I hope you can trust me someday.

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