Mariska Hargitay

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Broken

Dropped off your keys last night,
The front door still unpainted.
You were polite like ice,
I, once could met it.
You took our pictures down,
And you left them on the ground
Its like you wiped all the memories,
Of what we used to be...
You and me, before it all crashed down.

And I know I never told you,
That I love you,
Now its all too late.
And I don't know how to hold you,
But I want to,
I don't want to leave this way.
All I know,
Is broken.

I heard your voice break, when you said,
"well I hope you're happy".
Nothin' to say, I'll stare, straight into my coffee.
Then the conversation changed,
How we talked around the blame,
And the pain of losing.
All of the good times lost,
When it all crashed down.

And I know I never told you,
That I love you,
Now its all too late.
And I don't know how to hold you,
But I want to,
I don't want to leave this way.
All I know...
Is broken.

Well I'm here if you need me,
I know you don't believe me.
well I'm so sorry,
For all the pain I've caused.

And I know I never told you,
That I love you,
Now its all too late.
And I don't know how to hold you,
But I want to,
I don't want to leave this way.
All I know...
Is broken.

Lynette,this is a song for you.
This is an expression of how I feel for you.
All I want say is that,I still love you very much.

posted at 11:07 PM by Ammar | Permalink | 0 Comments

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Happy Dead 42nd Month Anniversary Lynette.

Boo,I miss you.
Its been days I been single so.
I wanna be with you.
Everyone says I am stupid for not letting go.
They make fun of me when I said I still love you.
Why doesnt anybody accept that I still love her and all?
I will wait whatever it takes.
Funny thing is,I dun fight for your love.
I am not sure about this.
But I realized that I dun fight for my love.
Reason is I dun want hurt your feelings.
I respect your decision who you want to be with.
I may hurt that person,but I wont do anything.
I just let it happen.
Yeah,it sound stupid but I am helpless.
Countless times,I let myself to let you be free.
I spent my time mostly thinking of you.
Counting the days.
Holding the hope the I had always had.
I swear,at this point now,I really want to see you.
I want to msg you,but something is stopping you.
Its not about my ego or what.
It just that way,that I cant push myself to text you.
Sigh.
Exam are over.
Results are poor.
I didnt give my best shot.
I failed myself and for us.
But I am determine to do better in the future.
Lynette,I love you so much.
)':
Have you ever felt how much I feel about you?
I keep imagining that you are by my side,holding my hands.
I miss your warmth.
I wonder,when will this come to true.

posted at 2:30 AM by Ammar | Permalink | 0 Comments

Saturday, May 1, 2010

I know its just a dream.

So now,I get to know about your poly life.
Well,I cant say much cos its your life.
I hope you get the right person.
Cos I want you to be happy.
Thats all I ask.
Even,if it were to upset me,I would do anything to do for your happiness.
I still love you Lynette,I still care for you.
I still want you.
Talking to you was a pleasure.
I wish I could talk to you all night long.
But,I feel that I am not worth it for you to talk to.
Like I some kind of asshole.
I seem to feel extra talking to you.
I feel its not right to talk to you.
Like Im bothering you.
Sorry to say all this.
I just scared to be hurt.
And Im just scared that you be hurt by me or anyone else.
I want to be there for you when you cry.
I want to be your best friend,and not that Joshua.
I want to be your everything.
In the end,I know its just a dream.
I will never be with you.
I wont be your number one anymore.

But I just want to love like how we used to.

posted at 2:41 AM by Ammar | Permalink | 0 Comments

My new Lynette.

Yeah,its a whole new bracket.
Ladies and present,I present you Nikon D5000.
Recently bought it.
I want to thank my dad for not breaking his promise and bought the DSLR.
I have been waiting for it since last year.
I was patient enough to wait cos I didnt want to trouble him.
And I was actually smart enough to wait for its promotion.
It cost me $1199.
Plus,lots of free gifts.
Cool right.
I find so much peace when taking pictures.
Like I felt lighter.
Memories came and go.
I enjoyed the thought of taking the perfect pictures and the natural surroundings.
I could relax my mind.
After taking a few shots,I decided to call my SLR,New Lynette.
Lynette would be always be with me whenever we went out in the past.
Now,my new Lynette would be with me too whenever I went out.
Goody.
I feel so happy with my New Lynette :D

I

posted at 1:55 AM by Ammar | Permalink | 0 Comments