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Enjoy.

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And now once again,
another problem surface.
My life are just full of problems.
Everyday,I face all this.
Why cant I just end it.
I saw his name on your friendster.
I see you talking about him.
Nvm,I dun give a damn.
I dun want to complain.
So,shut up bloody earth.

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Woman,
I am frustated by your attitude.
Just what you want from me?
I have given you everything you wanted.
Never once I regret everything I have done for you.
Then now,you are fucking ignoring me.
I just feel like a fool.
Its the same like I am being dumped.
I heard that you wanted me to hate you.
And that you need to move on.
Hate you?Move on?
What is all this?
Why must you do this to yourself and me?
You are being selfish.
You does not care about how I feel.
I dun hate you,but I hate what you are doing to me.
If you need to move on,go ahead.
But must you do this?
Ignoring me and all.
Hey,I am a human okay.
I do have FEELINGS!
Dun just think for yourself.
And,its your fault if you dun trust me.
Several times I tell you already yet you dun believe.
Then its your problem right.
Cause I have told you the truth and yet you dun believe.
Okay,I hope you realised what you are doing.
Hope you talk back to me(:

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This song is where I can vent anger!
Arggggggggh,handleeeeeBARRRS!



I can ride my bike with no handlebars
No handlebars
No handlebars
I can ride my bike with no handlebars
No handlebars
No handlebars

Look at me Look at me
Hands in the air like it's good to be
Alive and I'm a famous rapper
Even when the paths are all crookedee
I can show you how to do-si-do
I can show you how to scratch a record
I can take apart the remote control
And I can almost put it back together
I can tie a knot in a cherry stem
I can tell you about Leif Erickson
I know all the words to 'De Colores'
And I'm proud to be an American
Me and my friends saw a platypus
Me and my friends made a comic book
And guess how long it took
I can do anything that I want 'Cuz

Look

I can keep rhythm with no metronome
No metronome
No metronome
I can see you face on the telephone
On the telephone
On the telephone

Look at me look at me
Just called to say that it's good to be
Alive in such a small world
I'm all curled up with a book to read
I can make money open up a thrift store
I can make a living off a magazine
I can design an engine 64 Miles to the gallon of gasoline
I can make new antibiotics
I can make computer survive aquatic Conditions
I know how to run the business
And I can make you wanna buy a product
Movers shakers and producers
Me and my friends understand the future
I see the strings that control the systems
I can do anything with no assistance 'Cuz

I can lead a nation with a microphone
With a microphone
With a microphone
And I can split the atoms of a molecule
Of a molecule
Of a molecule

Look at me Look at me
Drivin and I won't stop
And it feels so good to be alive and on top
My reach is global
My tower secure
My cause is noble
My power is pure
I can hand out a million vaccinations
Or let em all die from exasperations
Have all healed from their lacerations
Or have em all killed by assinations
I can make anybody go to prison
Just because I don't like 'em
I can do anything with no permission
I have it all under my command because

I can guide a missile by satellite
By satellite
By satellite
And I can hit a target through a telescope
Through a telescope
Through a telescope
And I can end the planet in a hollocaust
In a hollocaust
In a hollocaust
In a hollocaust
In a hollocaust
In a hollocaust

I can ride my bike with no handlebars
No handlebars
No handlebars
I can ride my bike with no handlebars
No handlebars
No handlebars

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I hate this.
Why I am like this?
I just cant help myself.
I just dun like the way you are.
I admit I am jealous.
I duno why when I am not suppose to feel this way.
I just dun like the fact you talk to other guys.
Maybe I am the one that should stop thinking about that.
I feel pissed and jealous now.
Why?
At the same time,I feel like telling you in the face "I HATE YOU"
But I know I got no right.
I am saying that out of anger.
This,I know.
If you realise it,I said it cause I want to hurt you and let you feel how hurt am I.
In other words,I want "fairness".
But why?
If I am hurt,I do not have to hurt the other party.
I shall just think this way.
One day,you will realise your mistake.
Should I carry a fake smile where ever I go?
And,dun apologise.
The word "sorry" is meaningless to me already.
So,just carry on what you doing(:

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Okay,I shall respect your decision.
Now,my love is not stronger than before.
I know you miss him.
I giving you the chance to go with him.
You keep telling you dun love him,but look for yourself.
You felt jealousy,you miss him.
You had feelings.
Feelings that need the urge to see him.
Dun need to hide from me anymore.
Dun think that it will hurt me.
Dun worry,I can stand on my own.
Its time I take a step back and let you have it your way.
I only pray that in whatever decision you make,you won't ever regret.
And from now onwards,I wont say what I need to say.
Cos its only giving you more burden to your life.
I live to see you smile and be happy and not be depressed or upset.
Dun need to bother me also okay.
Dun feel bad.
The truth I nvr replied your msg was,somehow I had this feelings this was coming.
And I predict it right.
I felt its not right to reply you back.
Im scared that I will give you hope.
All right,I shall not say anymore.

Take Care.

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Whats with you darling?
I just dun understand you.
All I know you gonna hurt me more.
I promise you,when I cant take it anymore,I wash my hands off you.
I will hate you.
I dun want this to happen.
Though we were going well.
You said this is like a 'payback' to me.
But,this is getting too much.
Do I even deserve more than this?
You are always making me happy and all but later,i end up getting hurt and all.
Just what you want from me?
Havent I tried my best to give you my best shot?
I took the trouble to make a card for you,and this is what I get in return?
So this is all karma huh.
Okay,stop.
I am just pouring all my feelings here.
I wont say anymore.
Thank you for today.
I wanna say that you made me happy with you around.
Just that if you could make adjustments.
I pray that things will get better in the future.

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I know,
I guess I have been too much?
I have been telling myself to control but I just cannot help it.
No matter what,I will still end up doing it.
Honestly,when we wont do,I will think that you dun love me or you did with other guys.
Its stupid right.
Then I will get angry.
I dun want to do this to you cos it shows that I dun show respect to you.
I am sorry that I force you.
I just dun want to you know.
Like love is not just about this.
Each time we did,I feel a sense of regret.
Like we should not have done it in the first place.
I am sorry that I hurt you.
I know you dun like it but I am still pushing you.
Like you think I am making use of you.
I dun want you to think that way.
Argh fuck,I hate myself.

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I'm Sick Of Crying.
I'm Sick Of Trying.
Yeah I'm Smiling .
But Inside I'm Dying.

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Okay.
I just say how I am feeling now.
When you told me that I made you pissed off,
I felt I am some fucking loser who cant accomplished his mission.
This is not what I want.
It is just taking over me.
Now,you are reacting like nothing had happened.
As if you could dismissed the matter easily.
But I cannot.
Its very hard for me.
Like you out there in the distance moving on,while I am still stuck here receving no aid.
Somehow,my heart told me that I am taking control of you which I just dun want.
Cause it will either me,you or us.
I do not want history to happen again.
I cant help feeling anymore happier.
I just need to tell myself that you have someone in your life.
And that I cannot stop you from doing anything.
I can feel myself losing confidence and hopes.
The day I wish to see will be not be seen.
The promises you made,you broke the code.
How am I going to believe that this promises you made gonna be true?
Cause I know you will have regrets leaving him.
And I know you cant bear to leave him.
I am here putting my head down trying not to shed a single tears.
Controlling my emotions isnt easy.
Fighting back my tears is hard.
I want to apologise what I had done.
Stupid of me enough to tell her about us.
I just didnt know that would hurt you.
Dang,I dun want this feeling to surface.
This is crazy.
I dun want to let this take over me please.
Please.
I had enough.
Spare me from all this madness.
I duno what to do.
But I would like to wish you and him happiness.
Happy 3rd month to you couple.


Take care.
* **** ***.

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This song just somehow relates to me.
Like there is something I have to say it to her.
Listen to it fellas.

"Departure time 7:30
I'm packed and ready to go
First class ticket outta here
I think it's time,
To put it back in gear,
No more standing by,
I'm tryin to stay clear

Turbulence got me nervous,
I should have never flown
Scared when you
Fly alone again
You know the atmosphere
Wasn't perfect
I'm thinkin to myself
Was it worth it

Layover's almost overI can see clearly,
No more stormy weather
Exit row,
Don't pull on
The lever, lever
This gon be
My final destination
No more sittin round
Havin my time wasted

You say it's now or never
I pick never
We can be together,
So calm down
No more red eye late nights
I'm one way,
No more connected flights

When we stared out knew
This relationship
Was unhealthy
You broke the code,
Never thought
That you would stoop so low
You got me flyin solo
Now you cryin talkin bout you
Can't live without me yeah

You've got me flying solo
Solo solo

Touchin' down 11:30I'm rushing
Through the doors
I'm in a good place now
Can't find my baggage
And I don't even want it back
And I don't want
To have you no more

I don't need to carry on
It's gonna weight me down
He didn't think
That I would find out
Whether or not
Who is wrong or right
I can't talk now,
I gotta catch another flight

Layover's almost over,
I can see clearly,
No more stormy weather
Exit row, don't pull
On the lever, lever
This gon be
My final destination
No more sittin round
Havin my time wasted.

You say it's now or never
I pick never
We can be together,
So calm down
No more red eye late nights
I'm one way,
No more connected flights

When we stared out knew
This relationship
Was unhealthy
You broke the code,
Never thought
That you would stoop so low
You got me flyin solo
Now you cryin talkin bout you
Can't live without me yeah
You've got me flying solo
Solo solo

Four hours scared to fly
Without you here
Now you can't get
Under my skin
Like you did before
WhyI was reluctant
To walk out on us
So now I'm taking
Back my life
Goodbye

When we stared out knew
This relationship
Was unhealthy
You broke the code,
Never thoughtThat you would stoop so low
You got me flyin solo
Now you cryin talkin bout you
Can't live without me yeah
You've got me flying solo
Solo solo"

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Lynette,you are just killing me slowly and painfully.

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Since I met you,
I've fallen in love with you at least a hundred times for a hundred different reasons.
Sometimes I fall in love with you when I watch you doing something you enjoy,
something you're so involved in thatyou're unaware of my presence.
Sometimes I fall in love with you when I listen to you talk to other people.
Whether you're being interesting and funny or warm and caring and genuinely concerned,
you have a way of making people feel better with nothing more than words.
Sometimes I fall in love with you just thinking about you,
remembering all the memories we've made...falling in love for the first time,
staying in love during the rough times,
finding more to love about each other every day.
And whenever I think about the wonderful things that lie ahead of us,
I fall totally and completely in love with you all over again.

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