Mariska Hargitay

Friday, January 22, 2010

Sense of hatred

I have to be honest with myself.
I am feeling a sense of hatred towards you.
I duno why,but for some reason I beginning to hate you.
Maybe Im mad at what you did to me or maybe its about you and him.
Or even better,both.
At the same time,I still do love you and all.
Wild thoughts would be going through my mind the whole thinking what would you 2 be doing alone.
Its driving me nuts.
Its still going to be a long journey till this pain is gone.
I only come to realized that those "relationship" times were over.
Officially over!
Yet,I still cant shake those days on my mind.
Today in school,I been basically sleeping the whole day in school.
I couldnt get myself to focus on my studies.
It wasnt about you.
It was about me.
Pffft,love suck still somehow.
I dun feel like talking to you,seeing your name yet I still look at my wallpaper.
Till now,I didnt forget the msg you sent me.
"We could start anew in the future,maybe."
Maybe,was the word.
I am just waiting and still waiting.
Even though it wont happen.
Sigh.
Helpless.

posted at 1:08 AM by Ammar | Permalink |

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